“…Back to John Gottyâ„¢ the hustler/T-Y* is dead…”

I woke up perfect this morning.

That’s right…goddamn perfect.

No, I didn’t hit the lottery. No new coochie or some shit. But when you look @ yourself sometimes, those around you that you value, you realize that you’ve got just enough to hold you down.

I have food, clothing, shelter, love & support. I have a decent professional career that I enjoy. I don’t lack for cigarettes or my favorite juices. My Ipod generally stays on swole with good music. Even though the price of gas is high, I’ve got a few coins in my pockets so I can ride, sit down @ a restaurant & enjoy a piece of halibut with some rice on the side. I ain’t rich but I can cop a fresh pair of sneakers when I want to…but I’m just as happy without them, maintaining my checking account balance.

And on the inside, I felt a certain sense of strength, confidence…and hunger.

Don’t misinterpet what I say because I’m far from complacent. I still have so many other things to accomplish & need to do before my time is up, both here and here on earth.

It’s just that I know I’ll get there because my confidence and hunger give me this drive where I’m more afraid of not trying as compared to that fear of failure. People will tell you that possibly I’ve got slight OCD behaviors. Luckily I’ve accepted that and have learned to temper it when needed (pray for me). I, dear people, have busted my ass numerous times. Walking away a little sore sometimes, but for the most part, it ain’t hurt. Failure and not trying left more of a naggin, continous pain than the temporary hint of embarrassment and the ding to my pride.

So each day, I remind myself that there’s two sides to the coin. One side’s option could be that I’m rolled out of my crib by bodybag, having not been blessed to wake up. But if I get out of bed, I got something to look forward to because I have another day to work, play & love, leaving my mark on this world. Live it to the limit daily.

“God gave me style, He gave me grace…”

&

“I want it all, Lex and techs and shit
I want it all, a fly wiz and crazy kids
I want it all, Pelle Pelle’s and diamond jewels
I want it all, and my four-pound to buck them fools…”

Two new video clips for you…


Mood Muzik 3 Trailer

Mixtapes have trailers now? This dude got some nerve.

Dear Joe Budden – If you’ve got time to make TRAILERS for your mixtapes (a fuckin trailer?), I need you to go ahead, drop the tape & finish up the fuckin album homie. That’s my word.

T.I.P. – Big Things Poppin’

Tombout I’m finnit go do me some pushups too…

Loosies

Raekwon – UFO Freestyle

Swizz Beatz Feat. Drag-On – Bust Ya Guns (Remix)

DJ Khaled ft. Akon, R Kelly, T-Pain, Lil Kim and Young Jeezy – We Takin Over 2

Bishop Lamont & Black Milk – Caltroit

Styles P. – Hold On (prod by Fizzy Womack)

DJ Revolution feat Bambu of Native Guns -Soundcheck

Young Buck ft. The Outlawz & C-Bo – Money Made Me Crazy

Trife Da God ft Termanology – Trife & T (prod by Milkcrate Fam)

Supa Nova Slim Ft. Jadakiss and The Game – G’s Up Salute

Ying Yang Twins – Freak

Loosies

Drew’s over @ KING trying to help hip-hop find it’s sanity with his post entitled “It Was All Good Just A Week Ago.” Go on over there, read and drop a comment to blessing (or cursing) the gods.

*If you’re wondering who TY (tee-why) is…it’s the first two letters in my middle name, which I go by. John happens to be my first name. John Gotty is the nickname Cookiehead bestowed upon me.